Growing pains…
In this ocean of grief, there are days I feel pulled under water. Days that everything I hear or see reminds me of him. Most things that only I would know. The mention of the name of a movie that the guy that hit him, went to see…just before. The song on the radio he…
Brother from another Mother…
God gives us what we need at the proper time. My sister and her husband have been together forever. At least that’s what they say. 🙂 Twenty seven years to be exact. Uncle T has always been the light hearted, funny guy in the family. When tragedy struck 18 months ago, with the loss of…
I do not fear your anger, I fear your death…
Dear Young Adults, Your parents LOVE you,They want the best for YOU.They spend an ENTIRE lifetime doing for you.They give up much, so that YOU may have more.They want you to make GOOD choices.They want you to BE a happy productive adult.They do not want to see you HURT.They want to see you SUCCEED. They…
Nightstand Notes…
Over the years, on my nightstand, I have found notes of love waiting for me in the morning. The hearts beats I feel through these notes, take my breath away. The notes are not only from family, but friends that took the time, to mail words of love and support. My mom used to leave…
Bend a little, stretch a lot…
These six words do a wonderful job at describing life don’t they? There are experiences we encounter requiring a bend in ourselves or others. It may be a bend in the path we strive to be on. A bend in the road of life. Our hearts or bodies may feel bent. Bend don’t break is…
Are you adopted?
Five years ago today our family forever officially grew! As we arrived in the courtroom with our team of supporters, the judge smiled as he announced we would need a larger room to accommodate our crew! It was a celebration from the beginning. Adopting two children who were not gifted an easy start in life,…
Thank you…
Look Up Be Happy is a blog about a journey. Sadly, our journey is not so different than that of many others. When I began, this was our story. As time has passed I have realized this is NOT just about our journey, it is about many. Thank you to those that send messages of…
Christmas joy…
Many things I do, I still do for him. This new journey has been strange and I find myself quite different. I used to be creeped out by cemeteries, now I find peace there. Most people are in craft stores to create some fun. I find myself in Michaels buying flowers and honoring things that…
Looking up…
Our last conversation was on October 18th, 2014 in the early afternoon. I remember it vividly as Connor was expressing to me his disappointment…in an adult. It was someone he looked up to. He was always frightfully open and honest. When I look back at that last exchange of words, I remember feeling sad that…
Did you call?
I’ve spent most of my life wondering what my calling was. When you begin college you are called to declare a field or major. Some of us declare and then realize we really just don’t know what we would like to do with our life. It is a daunting task to try and figure out…
Thankful for flies…
Odd I know. This is one of those peculiar happenings since Connor left this earth. One of those things that makes you go hmmm. Every Sunday during church Connor would do something to make us all laugh. Usually it was near the end of the service during the last hymn. He would begin singing in…
Four letter words…
Connor was 17 years old when we had a discussion about foul language. Not that we hadn’t had discussions before, but I noticed he was using them frequently. His excuse was that all teenagers did this and his good news was, that he was normal. He also informed me that he had been told profanity…