Dear younger me…thoughts at 50.
Was I smart…not really. Could I love…truly. Success meant a large income…not money but people. Attitude makes or breaks the situation…always. Knowing many people is wonderful…True friends are rare gems. To lead meant to be in front…Leadership means servant. I’ll do it myself…Life is not about what can be accomplished alone but with like minded…
I love the ocean. It has always brought me peace. Grief is best described as coming in waves like an ocean. Somedays there are tidal waves and others calm waters. Grief is not an obstacle. It is not something to overcome. As time passes, I can see the obstacles. We all have choices on how…
God willing…
Someday you will treasure all that is done for you each day. Someday you will wish you had written down all the stories shared. Someday you will move away and appreciate what you were given. Someday you will think about all the home cooked meals provided. Someday you will believe all the warnings given were…
Wake UP!
Wake up! You can only try so hard for so long before you truly get sick and tired of people and all their complaining. Guess what!? Your attitude towards life is a choice. I have a laundry list of crap I’d like to complain about, but it won’t change one thing. I ask for your…
Dead or alive…
Today it’s not a band spinning me round, not Jon wanted Dead or Alive and not writing about the Ninja Universe video game…Gene Wilder was one of my favorite movie stars. “Willy Wonka” was an all time great! I love watching my husband double over and quote “Young Frankenstein.” Certain things weigh me down immediately…
Who recieves the gift in adoption?
Adoption is truly a rare, lovely gift. It is not a quiet gift. It is decorated with many colors. You will see them all. One can imagine a sparkly package with a perfect bow. For some, years of weeping are held inside this package. Opening the memories inside can be scary. It takes years of…
Gratitude changes everything…
I am strong, because I have been weak. I am fearless, because I have been afraid. I am wise, because I have been foolish. I am blind, because I have faith. I am loved, because He first loved me. I am grateful, because of eternal life. MamaC I hear people say that God doesn’t give…
Happy 21st Birthday!
Today is Connor’s 21st birthday! We will be celebrating in Texas where he was born on a 100 degree day August 1st, 1995 at 2am. The air conditioning was out in the hospital room. I think it was a clever incentive to get me up and walking out of there, as soon as possible. Many…
Even in the darkest of night, the sun will rise again…Les Miserables
Grief has changed my life. It has made me appreciate each day we live. It has made my heart and soul feel unimaginable pain. Each day I have to consciously push forward and say “NO” to sadness. I know our loved ones would not want us to dwell in constant suffering. Grief is real, there…
Firecracker! Firecracker! Boom Boom Boom…
A question was placed before our children in the form of the following: Who do you believe suffered more from the loss of your brother…birth siblings or adopted siblings? Indeed, questions such as these were required to complete a year long process of paperwork to close out what already seemed like an eternity of grief.…
Life, loss & love…
Today begins a weekend at Camp Piasa for members of Chosen to Shine non-profit. Our mission is to give young adults hope for their future through faith, fellowship, music and motivation with the opportunity to serve others, leaving everyone in the knowledge that they matter and are CHOSEN TO SHINE! Last year’s camp was held…
Salty or lightly seasoned?
Angry, agitated or upset…Salty, a new meaning behind an old word. I laughed the first time Connor said, “Oh! Mom is salty!” It actually takes quite a bit to bring me to “salty” these days. How about you? I’ll be hitting a milestone later this year in the birthday department. I choose to believe that…