Morning is not the same without “u”.
Sleep departed life, the same night as our son. The crazy hours of wake lasted nearly three years. Rest was ultimately gifted through prayer and a weighted blanket. The blanket was the necessary pressure of a hug, as if tangible peace had covered me. Loss brings clouds to ground level, where we arise in…
Who are you missing this holiday season?
As we bring out the Christmas decorations, I see our son’s smiling face on oodles of ornaments made over the years. Each of our children hang their ornaments gifted annually. I now have the honor of placing the Hallmark train series we purchase (#24) for our son, on the tree. As I passed the new…
What I don’t know
I don’t know what the future holds but all I know is that there’s nothing you can’t do. I don’t know you’re planning for me. I don’t know how the next few months will unfold but I’m counting on you to give me the strength and patience I need to get through it. I don’t…
Seeds of thankfulness
In the Spring of 2013, I was lying on the floor stretching, when I spied a package peeking out from under a stack of movies. It was an unexpected supply of flower seeds. The packing slip inside revealed our oldest son had ordered them. I could not imagine what our 17 year old would need…
Family lessons
Recently, our daughter had plans to go roller skating with a friend. Knowing her brother would like to go, I asked him to find a phone number to invite his friend. The expectation was, a friend meant a skating opportunity. On my way home that evening, I called to let them know that I would…
Prepare for the best
The last weekend of September, I was in church feeling overly agitated. The beautiful music, was muffled as crying children seemed to escalate everywhere. I kept thinking… maybe I’ve had too much coffee this morning! This was NOT normal. The next few moments I could barely keep my eyes open. It was NOT the sermon. …
Rainbow Reflection
Last night, on my way to our “Chosen to Shine” fundraiser, I looked up, saw a breathtaking sky and stopped to take a photo. The sun was peeking through the clouds. My phone could not capture the full beauty! Shortly after I arrived, the person that was leading the event walked in and excitedly asked…
High Five
Is this you? There are many times I don’t say anything or write—because I’m always afraid of saying the wrong thing and hurting more than helping. I know others have hurt you-when they did not realize it or were not trying to—I’m always aware as I’m sure I have done the same. Yet, you are…
A sisters heart ❤️
Five years this month is rough. We aren’t the same people we were before loss. It’s all about being grateful, finding beauty, by the grace of God, through faith. She was asked to write her favorite quote. She wrote down three and crossed off two. “Walk outside, look up, be happy” encompassed him and comforts…
Homecoming
When we give birth it’s such a joyous gift. One year I sent flowers to my Mom on my birthday. After all, she did all the work in delivery and the many years that followed! Never in a million scraped knees, or belly laughs did I imagine sitting in a cemetery to “visit” our son…
A spoonful of sugar…
Earlier I received an email from a friend that gave explanation and asked for forgiveness in advance of expected crabbiness. This person is on a diet and without sugar they are not the same happy person. This I understand. One month from today will be five years since our son left this earth. That’s…
Why is there a “u” in Good Mourning?
Good Mourning! Are you one that wakes up excited with anticipation for what adventure the day will bring? For as long as I can remember, that was my mindset. As I walked outside, I would pray for the sun to be shining! Life was good! Five years ago, in an instant, life changed. At…