Do you see through eyes of grief?
Is there a time of year that is difficult for you to get through? October, in all its Fall beauty, was our month of loss. As it comes to a close, I share with you these words… written the day we took our son Connor to college, August 14, 2014. “Yesterday I wrote about your…
10 in 20
COVID has been a catalyst for change among loss. SOOO MUCH CHANGE! Each time we are presented a significant opportunity, it’s formed in the crucible of crisis. What we are feeling, is grief. Ten years ago this month, two traumatized children stepped into our lives. Our party of five became seven over night. Good or…
Never underestimate loss.
Have you ever woke up and thought, “How did I get here?” This is not the life I’d imagined. Each time God presents a significant opportunity, it’s formed in the crucible of crisis. It is not free or safe. In a cross road, we choose to look up or walk away. If we see adversity…
This virus is really changing my perspective!
This morning I received a text with the title of this blog post. It continued with the truth of many things we take for granted and how much we have to be thankful for. This early morning text left the following words on my heart… We are ALL beginning to understand loss and grief on…
Mama Grief
Forgot what joy was, it all but tore. Poured my soul, to the child no more. Exhausted in trying to make it right. Feels like life is always a fight. Remembering back to better days When life was not a constant haze. They say true love is never lost. Our savior, already paid the cost.…
Morning is not the same without “u”.
Sleep departed life, the same night as our son. The crazy hours of wake lasted nearly three years. Rest was ultimately gifted through prayer and a weighted blanket. The blanket was the necessary pressure of a hug, as if tangible peace had covered me. Loss brings clouds to ground level, where we arise in…
Who are you missing this holiday season?
As we bring out the Christmas decorations, I see our son’s smiling face on oodles of ornaments made over the years. Each of our children hang their ornaments gifted annually. I now have the honor of placing the Hallmark train series we purchase (#24) for our son, on the tree. As I passed the new…
Seeds of thankfulness
In the Spring of 2013, I was lying on the floor stretching, when I spied a package peeking out from under a stack of movies. It was an unexpected supply of flower seeds. The packing slip inside revealed our oldest son had ordered them. I could not imagine what our 17 year old would need…
Prepare for the best
The last weekend of September, I was in church feeling overly agitated. The beautiful music, was muffled as crying children seemed to escalate everywhere. I kept thinking… maybe I’ve had too much coffee this morning! This was NOT normal. The next few moments I could barely keep my eyes open. It was NOT the sermon. …
Rainbow Reflection
Last night, on my way to our “Chosen to Shine” fundraiser, I looked up, saw a breathtaking sky and stopped to take a photo. The sun was peeking through the clouds. My phone could not capture the full beauty! Shortly after I arrived, the person that was leading the event walked in and excitedly asked…
High Five
Is this you? There are many times I don’t say anything or write—because I’m always afraid of saying the wrong thing and hurting more than helping. I know others have hurt you-when they did not realize it or were not trying to—I’m always aware as I’m sure I have done the same. Yet, you are…
A sisters heart ❤️
Five years this month is rough. We aren’t the same people we were before loss. It’s all about being grateful, finding beauty, by the grace of God, through faith. She was asked to write her favorite quote. She wrote down three and crossed off two. “Walk outside, look up, be happy” encompassed him and comforts…