Walk By Faith…
Sorrow looks back, worry looks around, faith looks up. Author unknown Sorrow: deep distress, sadness, or regret especially for the loss of someone or something loved. I have great sorrow. Not regret, as I loved deeply, fully and without apology to my son Connor and all of our children for that matter. My sorrow is…
Heavenly Hearts…
I wonder how Heaven is sweet boy? The love there must be overwhelming. I can only imagine the music, no headphones necessary, perfect surround sound, brilliant shine and peace. Last Valentines Day, I helped you wrap gifts that you were so excited to give to a girl. I was happy to see your loving heart.…
Happy 20 years!
Poor poetry written with heart… Swimming in love, twenty years past, at first I was scared, would our love last? Bobbing up and down, mostly raising kids Who knew that those little ones would get so big!? 😀 You are my anchor & strength, my oxygen on earth, forever holding on and telling me my…
Crossroads…
Yesterday God blessed me with time spent sharing grief and loss with women that I have been gifted with in this time of mourning. Women that know only too well how huge a loss of a loved one, can bring you too your knees. Strong women of faith that can lean on each other to…
Make today count…
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who…
Godwatch
In response to my recent post, “Good grief lifeguard”, my good friend Annette P. sent me this most appropriate photo! Thank you! My meaning today was that His Light shines most brightly when we trust in the dark OR under water! 😀 We all have darkness in our lives. There are days when we feel…
Good grief lifeguard…
Good Grief….an exclamation of irritation, frustration, or surprise. Lifeguard…a person whose job is to protect swimmers from drowning. I have learned that grief comes in waves. Some days grief pushes up gently to the day and other times it hits like a tidal wave. Breathing is difficult when you are in a tidal wave. Grief…
Backwards 107 Days…
The photo above is Connor on “JC backwards day” at Camp Piasa. It makes me smile. Today, I feel like wearing my hoodie this way…Each Monday morning I make calls still requesting a death certificate. I call insurance and confirm medical bills from the loss of our son. Each week I cry and pray for…
Whom shall I send?
The past week in Honduras with our medical mission team, comprised of true Christians all working together in love to help others, was life changing. Words will never truly explain the deep emotions felt. We reached through God’s love to do our best, leaving with the knowledge that much more can be done. World Gospel…
Love Letter
I happened upon this letter written to Connor last February. I had forgotten about it and smiled as I read it. My heart breaks missing him. Who knew he would be gone so soon…I pray it may touch someone and give them hope. February 24, 2014 Dearest Connor, I love you! I like you! You…
Bouncing birth order…
Calvin began life as our third child, our precious baby boy. At nine years of age he was thrust into the middle child order as we added two children through the blessing of adoption. Just after his 13th birthday he became the oldest boy in our family. He is strong, smart, reliable, conscientious, basketball enthusiast…
Courage, Commitment & College
I share this personal letter written to Connor in hopes that it will help others realize there is a “bigger picture”. This letter was written 2 weeks prior to his 18th birthday, as he was beginning his senior year in high school. The photo was taken about the same time, as he opened college mail.…