Notes in the night…
Life circumstances change us. It’s a choice what form that change takes. Loss is inevitable, young or old. You can’t change it, I can’t change it. Directions change, each day means more. LIfe goals and friends take new paths. We make mistakes and lose people we love. Let this define you, not by letting go…
Second Chances…
In our home hang these words: We do second chances. We do grace. We do real. We do mistakes. We do I’m sorrys. We do loud really well. We do hugs. We do family. We do love. I truly believe in second chances. I am thankful in my life full of mistakes and sinful choices…
Time – 131 days…Emit – vocalize
This week has been the most difficult since October. Yesterday, after 130 days we finally received a death certificate. I will not bore you with the unbelievable details that we have endured with the City of Kirksville and the county of Adair, MO. I am sure that most believe we would be working on healing…
Quiet Corner…
Our music corner sits quiet these days. Connor used to pick up his violins and play fiddle songs while our other kids danced through the house. It was quite entertaining. He would listen to you tube videos and then play the piano by ear. I was amazed at how he just became one with music.…
Walk By Faith…
Sorrow looks back, worry looks around, faith looks up. Author unknown Sorrow: deep distress, sadness, or regret especially for the loss of someone or something loved. I have great sorrow. Not regret, as I loved deeply, fully and without apology to my son Connor and all of our children for that matter. My sorrow is…
Heavenly Hearts…
I wonder how Heaven is sweet boy? The love there must be overwhelming. I can only imagine the music, no headphones necessary, perfect surround sound, brilliant shine and peace. Last Valentines Day, I helped you wrap gifts that you were so excited to give to a girl. I was happy to see your loving heart.…
Crossroads…
Yesterday God blessed me with time spent sharing grief and loss with women that I have been gifted with in this time of mourning. Women that know only too well how huge a loss of a loved one, can bring you too your knees. Strong women of faith that can lean on each other to…
Make today count…
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who…
Godwatch
In response to my recent post, “Good grief lifeguard”, my good friend Annette P. sent me this most appropriate photo! Thank you! My meaning today was that His Light shines most brightly when we trust in the dark OR under water! 😀 We all have darkness in our lives. There are days when we feel…
Good grief lifeguard…
Good Grief….an exclamation of irritation, frustration, or surprise. Lifeguard…a person whose job is to protect swimmers from drowning. I have learned that grief comes in waves. Some days grief pushes up gently to the day and other times it hits like a tidal wave. Breathing is difficult when you are in a tidal wave. Grief…
Backwards 107 Days…
The photo above is Connor on “JC backwards day” at Camp Piasa. It makes me smile. Today, I feel like wearing my hoodie this way…Each Monday morning I make calls still requesting a death certificate. I call insurance and confirm medical bills from the loss of our son. Each week I cry and pray for…
Love Letter
I happened upon this letter written to Connor last February. I had forgotten about it and smiled as I read it. My heart breaks missing him. Who knew he would be gone so soon…I pray it may touch someone and give them hope. February 24, 2014 Dearest Connor, I love you! I like you! You…