Expectations
I have been told repeatedly that if you have no expectations you will not be disappointed and can then instead be thankful. It is difficult for me not to have expectations. God says we should have hope and expectations through him. “Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him.” Psalm 62:5 I talk with my Heavenly Father in prayer each day. I’ve learned to depend on him not others. If I have a steady stream of words with Him, there are peace and answers. Not always the answers I hope for, but answers none the less. I did not stand at Connor’s celebration of life, for seven hours, as over a thousand of our loving friends and family poured through the doors twenty six days ago. It was God holding me. I am sure there were only one set of footprints there and they were not mine and I am thankful.
I am just as sure as you are, my friend, for what mother could have endured those hours standing there without Him? He was there, as were His angels, holding you and your family up as you greeted so many who came to say goodbye. I see God’s Mighty Hand all over you, my friend. I am so sorry for your suffering and pain, but so grateful for your faith and your allowing God to give you the strength to be His vessel through all of this. I love you.