When October ends…

October has always been my favorite month of the year.  The heat dissolves as I witness beautiful fall colors in the crisp air each day.  Pumpkin everything suits me just fine.  It’s not the scary things, but the beginning of a new season.  Two of our children enjoy birthdays this month.  I have prayed for strength as October approached this year.  Two years since our son left on October 18th, between our birthday celebrations.   Through tears, I jokingly say, “Mama needs to be put in a straight jacket for the next couple of weeks.”  🙂

Thoughts of a grieving mother…if only I believe, it will keep him alive.  I keep holding him as close as I can.  He was always making me see how small my troubles were.  Making me laugh when all seemed down and lifting me each time.  Forgive my heart, as only a parent that loses a child, would know such pain.

Last year was a blur.  October hit like a ton of lead.  This year, I am realizing that October should be a month of celebration as it once was.  It is the time our son entered heaven.  Praise be to God!  When October ends this year, I pray for the pain of loss to lessen.  I plan to celebrate his eternal life and the fact that we will see his smiling face again.  Truth be told, I do not fear, yet look forward to that day, in His time!

Peace & Blessings,

MamaC

“O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?” 1 Corinthians 15:55

Photo above:  Tigger aka Connor’s 2nd October.  🙂