Real life…

Real life…

September 10, 2015 2 By MamaC
Goodmourningmama.com

The saying above has been lovingly sent to me by caring people.  I understand and appreciate this.  I have read it over and over trying to find the exact feelings I have, when reading it.  With all due respect, I choose to disagree with these words.

Death is certainly something.  It is tragic.  So much has happened and continues.  Unbeknownst to most, in addition to grief, families deal with the business aspect of death, that can continue for years.  I am no longer the person I was.  I am changed.  Is there good in this change?  I’m sure that there is, but the sadness remains. Grief can swallow you up at times, unexpectedly.  The joyful bouncing into the room me, is gone.  We do speak of his name daily.  His memory lives in our hearts and voices.  I will love him forever.  Life on earth now means dreams with him, that were not meant to be.  It means doing without an important joy in this life, gifted to us for a mere length of time.  Life is not the same unbroken chain.  It has been broken by death.  I do believe he is waiting for us to reach him in eternal life, in God’s time.  I live in this world now, without my son, dealing with a path of destruction.  It does not mean that death is nothing.  All is well…in heaven.

For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us.  Romans 8:18