Walk By Faith…

Sorrow looks back, worry looks around, faith looks up.  Author unknown

Sorrow:  deep distress, sadness, or regret especially for the loss of someone or something loved.

I have great sorrow.  Not regret, as I loved deeply, fully and without apology to my son Connor and all of our children for that matter.  My sorrow is loss, missing my kindred spirit daily.  A wise friend recently told me that this life on earth is surely just a blink of an eye to God.  I shared with her that the last four months seem like an eternity to me.  Her words made me smile and I realized, she is right.  Some days my sorrow takes hold and I wonder how I’ll make it through.  It’s then that I pray and think of how my son would demand with a smile on his face, eyebrow up, that I turn up the music, let go and make today count.  I couldn’t agree more.

Worry:  something that causes you to feel uneasy or anxious, or a troubled state of mind.

There are so many things to worry about and so little time…I used to worry constantly.  Not to say I don’t have things that make me go Hmmm…but losing a child makes one realize that no matter how much time we spend worrying, it won’t change a thing.  Now, I pray…often.

Faith: Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.  Hebrews 11:1

I have no idea how anyone could get through the loss of a loved one without faith.  I speak of faith as eternal life, knowing that I will be together with my son again.  Eternal life, gives peace to mind and heart.

And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. 1 John 5:11

Five years ago, I felt the need to get a tattoo.  Maybe this was a mid-life crisis, I’m not sure.  I do know that I have never regretted it and look at it as my permanent “post it.”  Imprinted on my foot it reads…Walk by Faith.  Everyday as my feet hit the floor, or wishful thinking…the beach, I look down and it reminds me of my mission.  121 days ago, God put on my heart, burning like fire, not only Walk by Faith, but have purpose and action in my walk, not just by faith alone.  I’ve never felt this fire before and it is certainly not just a flash.  😀

Faith makes us look up, we must look up.  If we do not, we will look back and have sorrow, look around with worry or look down and be spiritually lost.

Walk outside, look up, be happy…forever Connor & MamaC